Pain pain

Was backing up files from the dying desktop to my HDD. Wow i have so much rubbish in the PC. Found some clips and showed it to P. She just looked horrified and kept saying baby pain pain while holding my hand. Wonder if she knows tt little baby is her?

This was taken a few hours after P was out, the newborn diaper looked so huge on her... She was on the ventilator but requested to go on CPAP. I didnt get to see her till the next day as i m still recovering from the C-section

This was taken on the 2nd day, she was on CPAP (it looks so big on her nostril) and covered with tubes. She had jaundice and was under UV. She looked so tiny. This little box was her home for a good 32 days during her time in NICU, before transfering to SCN where she spend another 30 days there to put on weight and learnt to sync her breathing, sucking and swallowing without turning blue and a hernia surgery. Life in the box is like taking roller coaster ride, u will never know what the medical teams will tell u, it is so unpredictable.