Finally got my paws on the book 'Battle Hymn of the Tiger Mother' by Amy Chua. I got it at a low price $28 at Chinatown Sq compared to $30+ in bookshop. Half way thru' the book, i m glad tt my parents were nt rich, else will be forced to practice piano or some musical instrument. My parents are the typical Chinese, they think tt having a gd education will lead to gd life.... Not true.... At young, my dad will tell us tt he wish tt we will be doctors or engineers. My elder and youngest sisters are the smart 1 cos they did very well in school, whereas me and the other younger sister who are nt so smart, shown the typical middle child syndrome.
Even till now, my parents adore the 2 smart one, the elder being the pharmacist and youngest is now practising medicine down under. The parents always brag abt them being busy with their work and so on. My other sister is working as an account assistant in a well know pharmaceutical company. Notice tt they are in health related field. Whereas me, always been an outcast since young, never been able surpass my older sister in term of grades. My dad wanted me to be a teacher, but i wanted to be a nurse. End up he won as he is paying for my tuition fee, i spend 4y in uni doing something that chinese parents will never agree with. I had a degree in applied chemistry specialising in petroleum geochemistry.... During my 4y course, i've never see any oversea students enrolled in the course, and i m the only international student. I worked in BP sister company after i graduated. Then in a research lab. My parents have no freaking idea what i m doing even till now...... To prove to my dad that i m nt stupid, i applied NUS research scholarship to pursue my graduate degree..... I got it but instead of pursuing a PhD, i graduated with a Masters. Being an academic is nt what i want. I m happy with what i m now..... Finally learning to let go and pursue ones dream, one can be happy.
I wish i can be a good mother who can be flexible and not pushy in raising my children. I dun wan to be a typical Chinese tiger mother. P still cant recognise all her ABC, well what the heck, i only know my ABC when i was in P1 (i didnt even attend kindergarden). ATM think i m to lax with P.
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