Losing my motivation

Been having a lousy week, be it at work or home. Things just doesn’t seem to go my way, TEM result suck, not showing a nice distribution on its grid, NPs that I synthesized don’t seem to be uniform in size. The tiny one at home is sick and I m losing my sleep and mind. Seems like everything just not going my way. Feels like I m lost, lost in the forest, feels that I m so tiny under all the big trees, losing my motivation in life. Perhaps I need a break, away from atm, the tiny one and work.

Suspected HFMD

P is having a bad cough with a lot of phlegm, my nightmare as she will tried her very best to vomit out all the sticky discharge. Brought to the GP downstairs for some cough medication, after some check, GP suspected it is the onset of HFMD as he seen some red sore on the roof of her mouth. GP started showing us the pic of HFMD, how the red dots on hands n feet looks like. What a great beginning to my weekend, checking of red dots, temperature monitoring and clearing of more vomit….

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Met XJ at the corridor this afternoon, had been awhile since I last saw him (during bowling tournament abt 4 mth ago). Though we worked in the same building but we don’t see each other often. His comment when I saw him was that I m very AS (anti-social) since P was born. I won’t deny that since I’ll go home straight after work. Sometimes I really miss the good old days where responsibility is nt an issue. Now I m someone’s wife and mother, I will need to scarify my time with frens for them ba.

Cramp

Been having leg camp for the pass few nights, the feeling reminded me of being pregnant. Honestly, I hate being pregnant, nausea all the way till the day I delivered P. Though the process is tough, but seeing the product, P is worth it. Oh ya, P enjoys pressing the buttons when we goes into the lift.

Childcare

P will be turning 18 mth in a few month times, it means we can send her to CC. We want to send P to a CC that will not focus too much on academic but on social skills which will prepare her for the cruel world out there. P doesn’t have to know her ABC or 123 now, she will pick them up when she goes to CC. Knowing ABC and 123 at a very young age doesn’t mean that you will do well in PSLE, ‘O’ level or uni. Einstein and Edison were not bright students when they are young, but look at them; they are great scientist and inventor.

ISSSH = Fish

FIL has an aquarium in his house, P enjoys hitting his aquarium whenever she is there. Last Sat, we were over at FIL’s place, P was standing in front of the aquarium, pointing at the gold fish and said ‘isssh’. The pronunciation is not spot on but I think is good enough, she is starting to recognize things ard her and identifying them. It is a good start, perhaps ATM and I should start reading to her before her bedtime than bonding together in front of the TV.

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P is 16 mth now, she can’t really talk and walk yet, but we are happy with her progress. She is calling me ‘Mah Mah’ when she needs some comforting, and ‘Pah Pah’when she wants a playmate. She loves playing with her shape sorter and pushing her stool and walk ard the living area. Her biggest achievement recently is she no longer cries when we put her in her play yard, she learns to play by herself in her play yard. Yes, ATM and I are very proud of her achievement, she being able to play on her own and I can do my own thing.